I went out to a sapphic dance night today. I saw a really cute girl, and I tried to catch her eye a couple times and eventually I was dancing next to her. I could have tapped her on the shoulder and said hi. She was with two friends who seemed to be a couple, she might have liked someone to dance with or talk to. But I just...didn't, and after a while she disappeared. I decided maybe I could make a missed connections post on Lex or something, but then later on I saw her kissing someone. and now I'm just feeling kinda stupid and shitty and pathetic.
Why can't I just talk to people? I go out specifically to try and meet people, but if someone tries to talk to me I act weird and standoffish and try to end the conversation as soon as possible.
I don't understand why I'm like this. But at the same time I don't understand how other people aren't like this--I saw so many people making out with strangers. How do people do that? How are they comfortable with someone so quickly? Is that even what I want?
Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself. But if anyone has tips on how to navigate the dating and/or hookup world, that'd be nice.
